can't sleep now... juz logged off ms after 'toking' to him there... thinking of all e thing she said to mi... m i really like wat he said now? thought i had changed for e better.. but he thinks i'm worse than b4... sad n demoralised now... feel like crying but haf to control, if not tml i wun b able to face anybody w my swollen eyes already... all e things he said... it's like i'm taking him for granted now.... i really dunno.... wat haf i been doing all these while??? seems like we're always bickering abt tis or tt... m i really e cause of all these?? guess i m... but it still hurts to hear it from him like tt... i feel tt he doesn't care as much now as he does b4, but he feels otherwise... y is tis so?? frankly i dunno wat's happening to us already... wat does he want??? n wat do i want??? dun even know all these... seems like i'm always troubling or bothering him these days... think i shd start taking a gd look at myself from now on...

lost.
lost..
lost...